Surrender yourself to the Lord, and wait patiently for him. Psalm 37:7
Surrender...wait patiently....but God this is really, really hard! Especially the waiting part, I am not good at that, you know this, after all, you made me. Doyle and I have to know yesterday if the money will get here in time to buy those plane tickets and if there will be enough to pay for all we need to pay for while we are there, I am scared and worried that it wont happen. My heart aches at the thought of not going, not telling, not loving....I can't wait. Kay, be still and know that I am God. Do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. Remember the things I have shown you and how I promised you that I would take care of all three of you on this journey, I did not call you out for you to be scared of the unknown. I have already gone ahead of you, I am with you, and I will follow behind you wherever I send you.
Why is it so difficult to let go of things, especially to the creator of the universe and of us? He knows the number of hairs on my head and my every thought and still I choose to try and control my life instead of letting Him do it! I love how He always proves me wrong when I do this and I pray that I do not continue this habit of trying to have control.
Yesterday started off just like every Saturday has for the past couple of months. Upward Cheer leading, Walmart, then off to church at FaithPromise! Yes, the three of us go to church on Saturday and Sunday and we wouldn't have it any other way! Clearwater is our home church and where we spend most of our time but Saturday nights are spent at FP! Anyway, after church we had to run by the ATM to make a deposit so Doyle pulls up and goes through the transaction and begins to drive away but pulls into a parking spot instead. I asked Doyle what he was doing and he showed me our ATM receipt...the balance was quite a bit larger than it should be. I couldn't stop the tears and immediately thanked my sweet God! If you read my first blog you know that we were worried about our tax return not getting here until the absolute last minute...it came yesterday. The seven day hold we put on the plane tickets in order to keep them at the lowest price they have been was due to expire on the 26th, taxes weren't due to be deposited until March 2nd, and we had already checked on the giving at church...we honestly thought May was looking like a better option for us! After my little rant on Monday and God setting me straight on having faith and patience and letting HIM control things, He let the blessings rain! Our plane tickets were bought last night and God brought an awesome message through Pastor Wayne this morning that was one of his best yet! After the service, Doyle hands me an envelope when we got in the Jeep, it was from a couple that we have grown to love, in this envelope contained $1000 for our trip. When they had handed it to Doyle the explained that they would never be able to go but wanted to be a part of our going and go with us through their gift. I cannot begin to express the emotions that come with something like this...we know 110% that this is where God wants us to be. We are blessed beyond anything we could ever be worthy of and all it took was SURRENDER!
For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with ALL your heart. I will be found by you, declares the Lord, and will bring you back from captivity. Jeremiah 29:11-14
Please continue to pray for us and for those we will reach...
Be Blessed,
-K
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